Thursday, 19 November 2009

Sealed

There seems nothing I can do to savage this situation I have caused. But neither do I have the idea why do I feel so upset over it where I always used to do the same thing during last few semesters.

But I guess I know what the reason is. Because I am really serious about it than any others. So it gives me a really huge impact for just a small mistake (which I consider it as a huge and serious mistake).

Yea, I am feeling utterly down now.

Besides that, there also seems like there is nothing I can do to return back in time. It is another mistake (which I have finally agreed with this fact) that I am in this course. Oh well, it is indeed too late to speak about regrets, but, ever since major project started, I cannot help but to always having this thought, "I hate it. I suck at it. Why am I doing all these? I just wanna give up."

It is fine, of course, if you have a programming skill in PHP, Actionscript 3.0 and so on. But I don't. I fear the computer as though it is going to gobble me up when I click on the wrong button. I fear the push and rush for things which I have to be done where first, WHY ISN'T MY LOCALHOST WORKING?! Second, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO MY LAYOUT WITH THE GIVEN PHOTOSHOP 5.0?! I NEED TO USE CS3! WHETHER IT'S FLASH OR PHOTOSHOP, I WANT CS3! Third, HOW TO EVEN START MY FIRST LINE OF CODES?!

Of course, it goes on and on.

I feel like having everything shut down and OFF.