An Overdue Apology

I needed some time to settle my emotions right now. It has been a year since I have cried so hard. And so I am now... why is it you again?

Ever since it ended, I have never shed a tear, even when I have faced difficulties throughout. Except for the quarrels with my parents. It is not that I did not want to. But I just could not cry. Imagine how torturing it can be when you want to cry out your sorrow, but you just can't?

Pardon me, I am still thinking of a reply. Or maybe I won't do it. I am having mixed feelings when I have received your text. I mean, this really took me by surprise. And this, is an overdue apology.

I cried hard, so hard that I've, once again, felt what it was like to cry, what it was like to be hurt by the overdue pain. It is definitely not due to leftover feelings, but, to prove myself right for what I have believed in long ago. This is what is within you. And I am never wrong.

But well, what's done been done. Let bygones be bygones. I can't say I know you, but I knew you. And nonetheless, I can see that there's a change in you. In fact, both of us have changed, in one way or other. May those days become the memories of us, whether it's joy or sorrow, moments which are worth to be learned and shared. I just wanna tell you that, I've already forgiven you.

For now that we have both found the world of our own. I wish you well as well. I love you, my dear dear friend. Thank you for letting me being able to grow through all joy and pain. Without you, I would not have come to know what does love really mean without hate; I would not come to know how to care and worried for people I love so much.

Last but not least, I just want you to know, don't forget that you are loved (if you know what I mean).

Thank You.

All the best.