Rant

First day of school was pretty... boring.

Usually, I don't feel anything when you do. Because I choose to ignore; you don't meant it that way since it's just jest.

BUT, I was feeling pissed off and irritated with all the teases and jokes on me today. Can't I have the right to feel how I am when I'm not feeling the way I should; just to be comfortable of how I feel?

Serious, whenever I'm not talking, maybe yea, something is not right. And today, I was really feeling super sensitive and tired that I couldn't take in anymore jokes. Plus, what do you expect me to do? You are either joking about my head, my height; comparing the way how I look to the other girls whom you think are 'pretty'. All those jokes hurts me badly I have to say (even though I don't usually said that I am).

Maybe if you tease about those occasionally, I wouldn't mind. But, it's bloody every single day, and continuously harping non-stop. You may think that it's nothing to you, but have you ever think in my shoes? How do you know how I feel with all these pressures?

I just want some respects.

So you really think I know nothing like an idiot? I never speak about my inner feelings. No matter whether I'm angry, sad and etc. And I'm a person who is very particular about myself. Maybe too much, which is really bad. I'm trying really hard to improve myself not to get too affected by all these (even if it's just a joke).

I hate people to keep comparing me with the others. I am who I am. Like the way you are of who you really are. I accept that. What about you?

Pity thing is, you still think I'm wrong feeling that way.

Bought an interesting book. Very interesting (: